Oct 5

I know it's a great title huh? I couldn't come up with anything better.
So not really in the mood to blog today but since it's my goal then
I'm going to, maybe I can pass of something for PP about writing
in my journal for 30 days or something.
Today was not a good day, some days are just really really hard and it
seems like it's more often now that I have 5 kids. It's just hard.
Nobody listens, seriously I will ask them to do something and they
will either straight up tell me no or they will completely ignore me.
Including my 2 year old. Mia used to mind so well and now she is one
of the worst ones. Kylie just yells every time I ask her to do anything.
The only one who listens is Elijah, that boy is such a good boy, I'm so
blessed to have him as my son.
Anyway, I'm very frustrated with them. And I don't really know what
to do to change their behavior, we put them in time out, we talk to them
about listening and not saying no. I just don't know what to do.
It was so bad that I just sat on the couch and prayed and asked
for help and patience. Because I'm not the kind of mom I want to be. I don't
want to yell at my kids, I want them to listen and I want the spirit in our home
and it's not especially on days like today when there is so much contention.
Sorry to be so down but this is just a venting post for me. You don't have to read it.
Oh and today Porter poured white out on our wood floor. Just so you know mr. clean magic
eraser gets white out off of wood floors. Thanks Sandy for letting me use yours.
And we were trying to potty train him but after 4 days of wiping poo off the walls and floors
we are done and he is now back in pull ups. Which one of which he threw against the tv and
all the gushy insides came out so that was another mess I got to clean up today.
It just seems to never end the house is always messy even though I clean all day long.
People keep telling me how this is the best time of my life, and I just think I hope not. I hope
it gets better than this. Not that I'm not super blessed because I am, I have an awesome husband who has a job, great kids (I keep telling myself that, positive thinking) we are all
healthy, we have a home, we have cars (that run most of the time), awesome friends, a super ward, really I have nothing to complain about. I need to remind myself of that too.
Anyway, tomorrow will be a better day.